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Thursday, June 25, 2009

OHH NOOOOOOOOO :(

i seriously dont wana become like this one day

but somehow

i know that if i go on gaining weight like this and give up on my fat body

i WILL look like this

OMG

plssss nooooooo

dont know why within this 2 weeks i really feel the changes in my body

like really have that bigger lump of fats on my tummy

even thou all along i have fat tummy

but just that a even bigger one now man

arhhhhhhhh

i know i cant always tell baobei this

cos i dont wana create something to quarrel

so better not

i dont wana wear my clothes and can see that big piece of fats on my tummy squeezing out la

like im gona start work soon : (

i just eat alot recently esp at home when papa da bao for me and all

hope i will lose some weight soonnnnnn after i start work!

Y(and i still dont uds why baobei can take it that im so fat.but yet im grateful that he doesnt mind me for who i am and how i look like.) Y

Y5:19 AM

Monday, June 22, 2009

the one who says it's stupid yet he enjoy taking pics of tootsie

nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

have been sleeping very late recently.NO GOOD NO GOOD!

4am 5am..and can still rmb the worst that day over at baobei's house

really very pek chek la when you just cant sleep when you really feels like sleeping.hmmp

ytd watched the korean ver of meteor garden for 5hrs!

once you start and you fall in love with the show

you just cant stop!

its addictive!

i dont even fancy F4 taiwan ver nor meteor garden but its just NICE for the korean one

sweettt!

BUT now i think it's time to do research for proj le

: (

hurrrr

JIAYOU!

2 last papers to go

Y6:44 AM

Thursday, June 18, 2009

VESPA IS SO CUTE!!!

some time back i actually have the idea of taking a bike license

BUT baobei dosent like me taking bike cos he hates it and he thinks it's dangerous

then i remember after that he told me

he feel like getting vespa?!

and now the topic is back?

hahas.he say its not good to ride a bike and all but out of the sudden he says

he thought of getting a license.

i wont stop him if he wants to

provided that he got enough cash to support him

cos i really DONT want to see him so poor after spending the money on the theories and tests

then in the end we have to be back to our so call "poor" life

but im like a bit confused la

now this later that then happpy say want not happy i also cannot learn?

for me,

I want to learn

but I really need to find time!

6days/week of work is no joke man

and I don know if I should spend the money on this which I dont know whether

I will have the $$$ to get myself a bike?

few hundreds on license and few Ks on Vespa!!

I really need to think twice

cos i dont wana regret

If i have the extra money and Im rich of cos i will take but not when like

I 辛辛苦苦 earn the money and save and always 1 shot spend a big sum of amount

and I so sucks in traffic stuffs.lol.if i pass,i think it's a miracle bah

it's good to have a license cos I dont think i will have the $ to get a car
IFFFF i pass,then its a great boost for me that I should try getting a car license too?
it's something to call my OWN transport

I hate memorising traffic stuffs
I dont even have the TIME and MONEY to waste on trying to get the license
even if pass,I wont bear to spend so much $ on a bike?
fuel and all are heavy costs too.the insurance and all,im so noob!dont know all those things too.It's not easy to save lotsa $ for all these

Y11:14 AM

Sunday, June 14, 2009

im rotting my ass at home
just dont feel like doin anythg
online online and online.so bored
i miss baobei
but i dont wana msg him now
just want him to happily go out with them w/o me being so extra
hurrrrr
sometimes i just dont know
how......
YY is right,ive got no life
and sometimes i just hate ppl discussing bout me
but forget it
i just dont wana care cos i dont give a damn right?yea
all along ive got no life
nvm,i will make my life what i want cos i noe that making myself happy is very impt

Y5:06 AM

Friday, June 12, 2009

i hate fri cos i hate accounting

no1 uds hw much i hates this subj

hw much i dislike goin to class when u feel so leftout when u duno ANYTHG even the basics

i just hate it

my last 2 modules yet im struggling like that in my heart/mind

and and and i just duno whether i will raise white flag

and surrender

maths related stuffs rly sucks

going out now.

Y2:22 AM

Thursday, June 11, 2009

after BINTAN its BATAM!

i so wana enjoy myself before i start my 6days work week.whee

BUT

i dont know

how to not feel worried and sad when my savings goes

so fast

when im jobless this 2 mths

yet i really feel OK with spending those money on getaway trips

its meant to DE-STRESS

and i really love being away from work,sch,SPORE

and how baobei will remind me nt to bring my worries over

and just ENJOOYYY(:

cos Bintan really works

whenever i was to think bout all those stuffs

i see him and i try my very best nt to

how can me and baobei meet and not spend money

i dont want to be so damn kelian la

but somehow i find it quite xiong

feel so broke la

just imagine each time ard 30-40bucks and hw many times

and other than that, so many other things that needs to spend

not to care?

not to feel jealous?

not to worried?

not to bother?

not to ask?

over-sensitive?

seriously!!

i just dont know what's wrong with me man

nothing better to do?

but i just dont like dont like.........

"them"

sometimes i asked myself bout whats wrong

whats with my possessive-ness?

im never like that

but why do i always have to get so damn agitated whenever each time they go out

is it just bcos he lies to me before regarding her?

dat plays a part.

and....?????????????

o/a its just dont like.

i know 1 day...

he will not care bout how i care n feel

but at least now i just hate it

hurrrrrrrrrrrr

i dont know

@#$%^&$#@@$%&*

Y9:49 AM