fly like you've never flown before,

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

finally my proj for case studies is DONE

yea!

BUT...the tough one is coming soon.i hate exams!

have to thanks baobei ta help me with some research and the contents thg

if not,i will be even slower

3 days/nights of chiong-ing

thou i went ta so call rest but fall aslp

i still chiong for many hrs + continuous days of working

damn shag la!

can die

ytd baobei went ta alvin's chalet w siew mai

IM PRETTY OK w that

maybe cos im too tired to rly go 烦 bah

i dont feel that upset partly of my personal point of view that i feel that

shinyi is rather "safe" as in,i feel comfortable with her

but,thgs are hard to say too

shinyi n jovi are very close too

just like baobei n jovi

sometimes i feel like slapping myself!!

why do i always have to make myself upset?

why do i have to start the topic of HER everytime i chat w baobei

i know it spoils our relationship ALOTTT

but....

sighs

i cant deny the fact that i care alot bout this and its super impt to mi

but like wad baobei says

he got no ways to make mi feel better for this thg

other than he try to cut down on sms n meeting her

i will try to not keep on thinking

but can i???

TRUST-somehow ever since all the quarrels over her,i dont rly know what

i can do to TRUST.

not that i dont love him

i love him

but i dont know how to maintain a r/s like this

HOWHOW COWCOW

Y11:42 AM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

HAIS x 1000000000000000000

left school early wanted to go home and rest or what

in the end

STUPID 961 make me wait like nobody business

f---ing 40 mins for a bus,waiting alone at the bus stop doin ntg

STUPID boy who's soso in deep sleep

like PIG

make me squeeze only,sit till very gao wei

NVM

what's best??

today is our 5th mth tog

i won again

SO?

we lalallaala again...

i swear i DIDNT mean anythg much when i say

" not like somebody dont care "

why is he so sensitive??

he always say he dont like to be accused/assumed somethg

ah har

i never uh.........

so why get so worked up?

i change my mood to be better and called him

trying to talk to him nicely

and this is what i get back in return

talking bout holidays,bday and all

giving me all this shit

or maybe to him is im giving him all sorts of shit

i dun uds

why must we quarrel almost everyday?

i hate the after that feeling

i feel so...............

sad+angry+disappointed+lonely

and my heart HURTS

i cnt take it le

but somehow my heart is trying very hard to pull me back

sighs

"Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight." - Phyllis Diller

how i wish we can talk

but then

dont know why

with baobei its so hard to " talk "

and he seems like he dont know how to talk to mi the main points

beat around the bush,in the end more sian

dont even feel like arguing

we are both very stuborn

hurrr

and tmr R WE STILL MEETING?

..................................................

Y11:34 AM

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

彼此之间的信任

真的可以很快的就找回来吗?

JOVI

why isit that we always have to quarrel over her?

HAIS

i dont even check on my bf's sms b4

baobei is the 1st one and ive asked myself

why do i need to do that?

bcos i feel insecure?

yesss.i think so

bcos i always think too much?

maybe bah

and so coincidence

for twice,there's something that i need to be MAD about

1st-content of the msg

2nd-this time totally never tell me anythg bout him meeting her

seriously,which gf can heck care bout all these?

some more he stil can tel her that i dont really like him to meet her so often

OMG!!i really is like speechless

he dont even know how awkward its gonna be lor

i can say im really much better and dont think that much after

baobei meet her less and all

and that i know he's trying very hard to make me happy

but

he SHOULD NOT have lie to me

white lies?

NO
i dont want

i just want him to be honest
its sososo impt to me
to keep our r/s going.that's the way to maintain

he says that he's not lying

then??????

tyring to pretend ntg that he did not meet her wait for her to finish work?

that they had dinner??

and pray hard that i dont know and wont know.

now that i know it by myself

im even more upset

and is rather disappointed with baobei

yet at the same time i uds that he's trying to not provoke me

or make me think too much

after that day

i have been thinking alot

i'd rather hope that i dont know bout it

it's a mark,a scar,a wound or whatever :(

that in me

i find it hard to accept

is the trust still there?

will there be another time that he will do it again?

can i still put my 101% on him?

SHIT

and i........

dont know :(:(:(

Y10:59 AM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

LOL.i always laugh when i saw dis pic

i wana take more photos w baobei

NICE ones

But i cnt tk nice pic ;(

Y9:35 AM

its been so many days hat ive not update anythg

hmmp..

have been thinking alot.ALOT recently

bout so many things

so fan and i noe im always thinking alot which is real bad for myself

MENSES problem-NB!its rly driving me crazy:(
School problems-projectsss and exams,deadline and all.me and bong try to split our 2 projs into 2.she focus on 1 and i focus on the other one.but somehow we did not go on the right track.that's very very sad and demoralising
Work-damn shag alr.cant wait for the time ta leave but whenever i tot of leaving w/o a new job makes me very uneasy and starts to worry
$$- w/o a new job,no income coming in.hais

its not that i wana worry so much

if i can choose to,of cos i wana SMILE (: everyday and be stress-free

and i DONT WANT to quarrel with baobei over these things of mine

money is an issue to me.YES.i love money

but i worked hard for all those hard earned money that i have,peanuts saving

and now thinking that ive to spend them all when time is so bad now

when i dont have a job!rly feel like crying la

sighs

yea.but guess ive no choice oso..its me that lets all these probs occur

anyway i hope that i wont be SO stress and less fan!!!

stay happy yeewen!!!!

I HOPE MY MENSES COME COME COME FASTTTTTER

I CANT WAIT LE LA~HAIS

Y9:15 AM